Should I let my wild heart follow a wild sexual fantasy?

One of my sexual fantasy has always been to be with a man much older to my age. I can’t explain what attracts me to old men but I just find the idea of a discreet dark sexual intimacy with men in their 50s very fascinating.

I have had a steady sex life over the last 5-6 years having been in company of one man or the other on a regular basis. Most of them were my good friends who have been there for me through all my emotional and physical needs. Recently however I decided to take a break from men. It has been over 8-9 months now that I had seen a man or had sex.

This break from sex was a welcome change because I could retrospect what sex actually means to me. I realized it doesn’t mean much except that for few very brief moments few times a week my body yearns for a man’s touch and I start imagining myself sexually involved with a man. The moment passes with a quick masturbation. And then I get on with life only to realize that sex is not indispensable.

Anyway, something happened the other day. I was casually chatting on Yahoo chat and a random stranger popped up on my screen saying he is 56/male/delhi. I chatted up some more and he wasted no time in asking me if I would like to join him for a sex holiday.

Well the question didn’t come out of the blue, no. I did give him sexual hints. For example when he said, “what’s up” I said, “nothing much just watching good old porn.” I have a knack of really teasing a man’s libido like that. Sounding absolutely innocent I asked him when was the last time he had sex. He said a year back. I said, “Wow that’s a long time, I had it 7-8 months back.” He eagerly asked, “who fucked you?” “My friend” I answered, giving him hints that I am game for a casual sex.

So he got the hint very well and asked me, “Will you like travel with me to some place and stay with me for a weekend?” The question was not bizarre, bizarre was that I actually agreed. I said, “Yes why not.” This was the first time I did something so crazy. I was simply not thinking.

But now I am nervous.

After I agreed he asked me questions like, “Do you like anal sex?” “Are you shaved?” “Do you like to suck cock?” “Are you on pills or do you want me to use a condom?” The conversation started to turn me on a bit and at the same time I felt extremely nervous. I tried to avoid answering them and said “I am off to sleep now” and signed out.

As of now we have not exchanged numbers or pictures. So he still doesn’t know my identity.

Do my readers think this is a crazy idea? Should I go for the sake of fulfilling a sexual fantasy? Should I be burdened with taboos and worries or should I just let my wild heart follow the wildest of fantasy?I am worried that he might force me to do things I don’t want to do, or he might drug me film me or some other shit like that.

I am creating the following poll, please cast your opinion or leave a message at the comments section.